Narcissistic Abuse Survival

Well, we have to start somewhere… People in my life have told me that I should write a book to share my story, my journey, over the past fourteen years or so. I’ve said for years that I needed to write… a blog, maybe? I want to reach people who have gone through, or are still going through this horrendously frustrating ride in any sort of a narcissistic abusive relationship. My own personal experience was, and still is, with my ex-husband. I am not a doctor or therapist. I am a person who has experienced some of the worst emotional and mental abuse by someone who I thought (at one point in my life) loved me. My goal in sharing my story is to help you know that you are not alone, and maybe offer some guidance and even advice based on my experiences. In starting this, I had no idea where to begin, so we’ll start at the very beginning, in 2008.

A few disclaimers…just because. Names will be changed, mostly to protect myself from legal ramifications. I have been diagnosed with CPTSD (complex post traumatic stress disorder) and I do have generalized anxiety disorder as well. Also, all of the ‘narcissistic words’ will most likely not be used in this blog. Gaslighting, gray rocking, love bombing, hoovering, supply, stonewalling, and idealization are some words that describe a narcissist or their tendencies. I am just here to tell a story, not be a dictionary or to use confusing words. If you’re reading this, I am sure that you are aware that the diagnosis of narcissistic personality disorder, or someone being a narcissist is extremely hard to diagnose even by the most experienced of psychologists, psychiatrists, therapists and counselors alike. I, of course cannot diagnose someone with NPD or state that someone is in fact a narcissist. However, if it looks like a duck, and quacks like a duck… I will call it a duck.